Weekly Weigh-In

You know when you have those weeks where you feel like you did everything right? The ones where you expect to see a big number on the scale, to then see less than what you were expecting? Well.... that was this week.

Weight loss: 2lbs
New weight 251lbs
Total lost since starting isagenix: 7.5lbs

Now I know that a two pound loss is a good loss. I also know 7.5lbs lost in two weeks is amazing. I'd be happy if I lost that on WW, but on this program I was expecting more. I really was. I always hear of these 'big numbers' on this program and want the same. I did my cleanse, I ate on target, I walked my steps, and the weight didn't fall off. Why? It's highly annoying and disappointing. I'll get over it, but still....

The only thing I wonder about is that this past week I've been under A LOT of stress.  It's gotten better, but it's still not great and maybe because of that my body responding as it should. Who knows.... Could be hormones, and all the supplements I'm on. It really could be anything, but whatever it is, it's not great.

For this coming week, I hope to reduce the stress even more and continue with the program. Hopefully then I'll see an even bigger number on the scale next weigh-in.

Day 2

I'm working nights tonight. I always find when I transition from days to nights hard food wise. I never know when to eat, how much to eat and what I'll feel like eating at 4am.  It's hard.

I weighed myself today. I'm 251 pounds. Not happy about it, but the good news is I'm exactly the same weight I was in June!  At least I didn't gain anymore between then and now, right? So that is something to be pleased about.

Here's my menu so far....

Breakfast @ 10am

• 2pc toast with PB and banana
• 1 cup bolthouse chai vitamin drink

Lunch @ 5pm (I had a nap between 10am and 5pm)

• Subway - new veggie patty sub on flatbread - footlong (hoping it will hold me for awhile).
• Nestea Zero

Drink Snack @ 6:30pm

• Grande iced tazo chai from Starbucks (light ice and lactose free milk)  - felt guilty after drinking it :(

Snack @ 11:15pm

• Fresh raspberries - 12oz with splenda
• Mixed veggies c/ ranch dip  
• Several cups of water

Dinner @ 4:15am

• Green beans and Quinoa with margarine and S&P
• Soup - Gardennay market vegetable blend 

Snack #2 @ 8:30am

• Bowl of honey nut cheerios with milk

Finally....

I FINALLY weighed in. 

I'm embarrassed to tell you that I have gained a crap load of weight.

New weight - 233.6lbs. 

That is a 8.4 pound gain since November 25, 2010.

F*CK ME NOW

(maybe if you did I'd actually burn some more calories and lose some weight!).

Yes, I've ate so much I've now lost my 20lb milestone and my 15 pound milestone for that matter.

Sucks, sucks, sucks......

I think the same old thing happened that happens every time I fall off the wagon.  I was tired (and this time sick) and lazy and started grabbing on the go to make it 'easier' on myself. Then Christmas happened and I lost my motivation. I just said to myself I'll get back on track 'later' and gave into the goodies and crap food - and lots of them! 

The good news is, like I said before,  I finally did enter a WW meeting and I've started learning the new program. Recalculating everything is a big pain in my behind, but it's a pain I'm willing to have at the moment. I need to have this pain! So far I'm loving the fact that veggies and fruit are zero points (minus a few exceptions apparently). Funny enough I've actually been craving them lately. HA-HA, that should tell ya how much I haven't been eating them in the last month!  

Most of the things I use to eat have increased by only a point or two. Not too shabby considering my daily limit has also increased along with my weekly, so hopefully I'll be okay going forward. Are any of you who are still out there (who haven't given up on me) doing the WW new program? How do you find it?

I also plan to get back into running and exercising in general. I've been a total coach potato lately minus the regular routine and going and visiting Joelle. I was given the new Wii Fit for christmas and will be using it a lot in the future. My running buddy and I have also started planning days to get back together and start moving again (Hi running buddy - I know you're reading!) so I'm excited to move forward and shed the pounds I gained and reach my goal of 54 pounds lost by my birthday in June. Fingers crossed! 

I might not have lost 27 pounds by december 31st - because I absolutely 100% self sabotaged myself.....ugh.... but I swear I'll do everything I can to make up for it and still reach my second goal.

So here's to resolutions (of sorts) and moving forward. 

Cheers to all! 

WI Day

I'll take it!

Weekly WI :-)

Look who lost more weight!!!!

AM WI

Phewwwww,

I was so worried all week I was going to screw up/self sabotage (again) and lose my 20 pound milestone.  It didn't help I wasn't tracking like I should have been. I have been "careful" and sort of was counting in my head, but still...not good!  Don't worry, I'm back to tracking online again now. It's too stressful when I don't! 

I'm now only 2.4lbs away from my 10%  - Wooohoooooo!!! 

add the fact that hot doctor gave me a super nice compliment yesterday, life is GOOD! 

...that or the pills are really working! ;-)

whatever it is, I'll take it!!!!!!!

Anyway, I ended up heading to the grocery store after my WI this morning (I went this AM, as I can't go at my usual time tonight) and then I came home and had some of these......

so good!!!!!

Say what? Potato chips?  Oh yes, that's right my friends. I ate these puppies and didn't even feel guilty about it!!!! I  might be the last on the planet to find them, but these are Kettle Brand "baked" salted potato chips. 170Cal, 4.5g Fat, 3g fibre, 4g protein for 30-32 chips aka 40g/serving.

They are worth searching for.

Total Yumminess!!! 

Great WI!!!!

I was going to post this later tonight, but I'm just too excited and have to share.

Look what happened at my WI this morning.

WOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I did it!!!!!

Despite my depressed mood of late, despite the fact I haven't been running like I should be, despite my crazy ass shift work and despite my ups and downs with food.

I DID IT!!!!!!

Me = So happy!

This is why we should never give up my friends!!!!!!!

I ended up going to an early morning meeting this morning as I work tomorrow and can not go to my normal meeting. The leader at this meeting was great. She was very enthusiastic (almost too much so for this non-morning person), and she was very welcoming and had great tips and advice.  I've decided I'll keep going to her meeting now when I can't go to my own.

The girl that weighed me in though, I could have punched. So here I finally weigh in and lose 20lbs.

Do you know what she says to me?

Oh....

you're so close to your 10%.

yeah, thanks.

Remind me that I still have yet another 4 pounds to lose until I get to that milestone. Gezzzzz..... I just lose 20 lbs!!!!!!! Can we not just celebrate that? She did give me praise after the fact, but man.... I was not too impressed. Oh well, the leader made up for it and in her defence, she probably meant well.

I also got this funky charm at my meeting this morning as well.

16 week charm

Weight Watchers celebrates sticking with them for 16 weeks because studies show that anything you do for 16 weeks begins to become habit! 

Anyway folks, I'm off to visit my sister and my niece for the day. I hope you have a good one. I know I will!

The Bad and The Good (better to end on the positive!)

The bad - I haven't blogged in 4 days

The good - I'm back

The bad - I'm struggling with food again

The good -  I have not once thought of throwing in the towel completely

The bad - I gained 2.4lbs this week

The good - it could have been 7lbs like last time ;-)

The bad - I wanted to stay in bed all day today

The good - I didn't.

The bad - I feel like the pit of despair is attempting to suck me back in. 

The good - I'm resisting with everything I got and even made a doctors appointment hoping for some help. Take that PIT!

The bad - I spent a shit load of money today - retail therapy? 

The good - It was mostly on running gear!


The bad - I feel like an idiot in a running store as I have no clue what gear to get and why
The good - Running Room staff rock and were very helpful! 

The bad - I only had one choice of jacket to buy at the running room and one colour choice because I needed an XXL.

The good - An XXL FIT! 16 pounds ago it probably wouldn't have. Plus the sleeves are long enough and at least the colour was burgundy, and not bright yellow! 

The bad - the new XL long sleeve running room shirt I bought shows all my rolls as it's a bit too snug.

The good - No one will ever see it because I'll be wearing my snazzy new jacket over top of it.  By spring I hope to be thinner so  it will fit better! 

The bad - I spend about $150.00 on new running shoes....ugh.....

The good - They ROCK!

The bad - I can't find my Nike+ sensor

The good - I didn't let that stop me from timing my run tonight. I used my ipod stopwatch instead (which I just realized it had!)

The bad - I can never join an "in store class/clinics" at the Running Room so I can meet new people.
The good - they have an online clinic so at least I can still interact with an instructor and learn the many secrets of running! 


The bad - I'm still a slow runner

The good - I ran my long run route tonight in 29 min, 53 sec, when it usually takes me about 31min. 


The bad - I'm running another 5K by myself on Sunday.
The good - 499+ strangers are also running a 5K on sunday so I actually might be faster than one of them! ;-) 


The bad - It's suppose to rain on Sunday
The good - you know that jacket I just bought? It's waterproof!!!!! 

Early WI - Zero Gained, Zero Lost

Annoying!!!!! I was really hoping that the scale would move this week so I could finally say I've lost 20 pounds, but it wasn't in the cards.  I'm a bit bummed about it of course. I tracked, worked out etc..etc.... so was really hoping, but the scale gods were not on my side. Okay, well maybe they were a bit, I could have gained after all, but still....I'm sure you know what I mean.

Moving Foward, I'm just going to keep doing what I've been doing and hopefully I'll have a great WI next thursday.  My family is celebrating thanksgiving this saturday (as I worked all last weekend), so it's not going to be a easy one, but I really want to drop that one pound so I'm really going to try my best!  Wish me luck!

Thursday Weigh in - Down 2.6lbs

That's more like it! I'm officially in the 220s.  228.4lbs to be exact. YAHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
It feels great. Only one more pound to lose and I've hit 20 pounds lost, and only five more pounds to lose and I'll hit my 10% at WW!

19 pounds gone! 

Emily and I - taken with Mac Photo Booth tonight
I thought I'd share this picture, because I  simply love it!
Isn't she cute?!

Thursday Weigh in - Down 0.6lbs

Another small loss, but a loss nonetheless and I'm happy about that.  I'm hoping by week 16 to be 20lbs lighter. It's totally doable. It's only 3.6 pounds in three weeks that I would need to lose. I know I can do it and I'm actually excited about it. I can't wait to lose more weight!

What's going to help me kick this weight? Running that's what! As a result I've decided to sign up for another 5K. Woot Woot!!!!! I'll be running the "5K on the Runway" in support of Hearth Place Cancer Centre on October 24th. This is the Cancer centre that my Mother had (and continues) to find support at. They have wonderful programs for people with cancer along with cancer survivors like my Mom.

It's the first time the local airport has hosted such an event and it sounds like it could be a lot of fun. I missed running the 5K at Pearson Airport this summer (which would have been awesome) so I don't want to miss this one.  I will not get to see 747 airplanes taking off and landing (it's a smaller airport),  but it should still be cool. A colleague of mine said she would run it with me along with my running buddy who's doing the run on sunday with me so I'm looking forward to it. My Mother is also going to be doing the 1K walk.

Food wise it's been okay. I did have a treat night tonight though and ate a footlong veggie sub, with light mayo and cheese at Subway. I also had two cookies and a lemonade. I'm not too worried. I usually eat a little more than usual after WI and I'm fine on the scale next week.  One thing I'm not too happy about is my lack of veggies and fruits on the whole lately though. I've been a bit of a carb-o-holic simply because I had a grocery issue. In other words I had none.  To fix that problem I went  to the store and stocked up after my WW meeting and my stop at Subway. I now have bananas, apples, watermelon and cucumbers in my fridge along with peppers and onions and red potatoes etc..... I feel much better going forward. I do plan on making some new recipes that I found online, so stay tuned to learn how they turned out!

WI Results - Down 0.4lbs

It was a rough rest of the week. I'm not going to lie. I actually went over my points. I just couldn't get satisfied EVER. I'm hoping this is behind me as I go forward.

Thankfully I was able to pull off another loss. A small one, but I'll take it! I really thought I was going to gain.  Starting tomorrow I'm going to buckle down and see if can lose more than 1.6 pounds so I can say good-bye to the 230s. I know it's not going to be easy, but I'm really going to try. I just need to stay focused on the goal at hand and fight for it hard!

Thursday WI - Down 2.0 lbs!

Great news! I'm down another two pounds!!!! I've officially lost all the weight I gained during my two week binge. Thankfully it only took me another two weeks to drop the weight again. Thank. You. Jesus! 

In three months (minus a day) I've lost 15.4 pounds. I know if I didn't have those bumps along the way I could have lost more, but lets not focus on the negative people. That doesn't get ya anywhere. I'm just happy I lost weight, and 15.4lbs is nothing to be unhappy about! I've lost just under one quarter of the weight I need to lose. That's awesome in my opinion. 

What a difference a week makes!

Last week the scale was up seven pounds. This week it's down five!

......or so I thought. Look closely and do the math. Is the pounds lost right, or is my weight right?

My leader made a big deal (which was nice) when I lost the "5 pounds" at the meeting so this is is how I took it when I got home and noticed what happen.....

She got the 5 right, it was the weight that was wrong. ;-)  LoL

Who really knows if I lost 4.6lbs or 5lbs this week. A part of me obviously does care what the number is due to the fact I wrote in big black pen over my weight and corrected it, but in the whole scheme of things, it doesn't matter. What matters is I lost weight which is a far cry from the crazy ass two week combined gain of last week. Notice I just had to tell you that, that gain was over a two week period.  Yeah, like it's sooooo much better that I gained 7 pounds in two weeks rather than just one! 

Things are improving again though and I'm feeling great. My other friend joined WW tonight and came to the meeting with me so I now have not only one buddy going to meetings with me, but rather two. It's great to have all this support around me. We'll keep each other in check and on target. It's going to be fantabulous! 

When I fall, I sure make a bang!

I've been away. I've been away and haven't been good at all. Being away is NOT good for me. After the whole car thing, I found it really hard to get back on track. I really struggled, I didn't read any blogs, I didn't update mine, I skipped a WW meeting,  and this led me to  crash and burn!

I've gained 7 pounds in 2 weeks.  SEVEN FREAK'IN POUNDS PEOPLE!!!!!

UGH.......

That is the bad news.

The good news is that I am on day three of counting my points. I even made two recipes yesterday out of my Good Housekeeping Family Vegetarian Cook Book (which I would share, but don't want to be sued for copyright infringement).  I feel like finally I'm back on track. I'm not giving up, and still have goals I want to reach. No matter how many times I fall off this damn wobbly wagon, I will get back on it each time, so help me god!

I think this fall is going to be a good one. The weather is cooler which means I will be able to run when I want to, and my work schedule is changing to a much more desirable one at the beginning of October.  I'm very pleased about this. Two of my friends are also starting to come to my WW meeting with me on thursdays. I think the added support can only be beneficial.

So here's to losing those seven damn pounds as fast as I can along with about 60 more! ;-)

I'm back...with good news!

As my father says, things truly do have a way of working themselves out.

After a week long search for just the right pair of wheels (I truly had no clue what I wanted), I ended up with a 2006 Mazda 3 sport hatchback with only 47 000KM on it. It was a killer deal and although I had to drive 2 hours west to get it, I'm so glad I did. I picked it up yesterday and even though it's a sport, I plan to drive it like a Grandma would. You know the ones ;-) I'm so afraid of anything happening again.

I talked to my insurance company and to my surprise I had a "vehicle protector" (or something like that) on it, so my rates actually will not go up. Now if I get into another accident they will (hence the grandma comment), but for now I'm safe. Thank goodness!

On the food front, I've been horrible. I was out from 10am-9pm on most of my days off searching for wheels and because of that I ended up eating out A LOT. Veggie burger and fries-R-US........but guess what?

I LOST WEIGHT!!!!!!

How the freak did that happen?

I lost all the weight I gained before, plus 0.8lbs! Total loss this week 2.4lbs!!! Total WW loss - 15.0lbs!!!! (picture proof to come later). This weeks loss was truly a gift from God, which I totally don't deserve, but I'll take it!!!! Man, things are truly looking up!!!

This morning after WI, I went and bought groceries and plan to start tracking like I should have been all along. I'm not going to be travelling anywhere soon (as my trip money is now in my car), but I still do have goals I wish to reach. I obviously will not be running a 5K at the end of this month (as with food tracking, my running also went out the window), but I do plan to run the 5K "run for a cure" in October. By that time, I hope to be another 10lbs lighter. That's doable, and I know I can totally meet both goals, if I set my mind to it!

So, I am sorry that I have been absent from this blog for a bit, but I'm back ladies and gents and don't plan on going anywhere again soon!

Things happen in 3s - including car accidents!

Yup, that's right folks, I was in yet another car accident last night.  Unfortunately for me, this one was my fault....along with the damn rain! I was coming up to a car in front of me and put my brakes on and slid like a crazy gal. Of course I tried to avoid him, but with no suck luck. Now my car that I just picked up last tuesday from the collision centre from my last accident (that wasn't my fault) is now back in the shop, and I'll have to go get another rental. :-( So. Not. Fun. I'm sure my insurance company is going to have a heyday!

Thankfully no one was hurt. I must say I'm pretty darn sore though. My knees bagged the dashboard (because I'm so darn tall), my seatbelt and air bag did it's job to protect me, but they still managed to beat me up a bit. My neck is pretty stiff too, but nothing I can't handle with some A535 and a neck beanbag thingy. I'm sure you know the type.

Food wise, I have a feeling isn't going to be great this week either. This of course would make a 3rd gain, because on friday I did gain at WI.  I gained 1.2lbs. It's not a crazy gain for the amount of food and lack of activity I was doing up north, but still, it's a gain and I'm not proud of it.

Saturday I went shopping at the Eaton Centre in Toronto and once again was reminded of all the wonderful stores I still can not shop at.  I'm tired of shopping in the fat stores. I'm tired of having no style. I want variety people. I want to shop in every store. I want to enjoy clothing shopping again. As I say this however,  (and yet again I'm not proud) I gave into the temptation of stuffing my face for comfort after the accident and went to burger king for a veggie burger and fries....and an apple pie. ugh.... when will I truly learn, these foods are only hurting me more?

Up 0.4lbs

July 29 - first gain on program, but at least I can still say I have my 5%!   

Soooooooooo, do you think this could weigh 0.4 pounds?

Yup, that's my sexy self hooked up to a 24 hour holter monitor.  What you don't see is all those leeds connect to a little silver recorder which is in my bra! For those wondering, about a month or so ago I had a couple heart palpitations (lasting less than 10sec), and some light headedness at work. I told my doctor about it when I saw him last and he ordered the holter. I haven't had them since or the dizziness, but of course went through with getting things checked out anyway.

I'm not surprised by the gain this week. Not just because I had to wear this silly thing to my WI, but because I wasn't 100% tracking like I should have been. Plus, remember the lasagna incident? Yeah, that didn't help. This time (which is something kind of new for me) I'm not dwelling on the gain at all. If I did, it would take away from all the non-scale victories I had this week.

Lets look at them shall we.....

• I ran four times this week! FOUR TIMES!!!!  
• I ran in the crazy humidity (40 degrees) once
• I used a treadmill once (something I was also afraid of)
• I ran the fastest 5min ever - pace 6.45min/km 
• I've practiced yoga five times thanks to the yoga challenge
• Even though I wasn't counting I still ate pretty nutritious food ie. watermelon, cucumbers etc...
• I wore a size XL shirt - a bit snug in places, but it was still wearable!
• my belt I have to tighten just a little bit more now

Not too shabby I'd say. Finally I am learning that it's not only about the numbers on the scale! With that being said though, this coming week  is a new week and one that I plan to kick some ass in. I'm going to keep up with the running and the yoga (as they work so well together) and track like a crazy person with hopes to see a big number next WI.

Down 3.0 lbs

Start weight - 247.4lbs - June 17, 2010

Current Weight - 233.2lbs
July 22, 2010

I'm down 14.2 lbs! Woohooo.... I reached my 5%. This watching what you eat/portion control thing really does work!  Who would have thunk?! Ten percent here I come! 

I lost another 3lbs at WI. Remember though, that's 3 pounds in 2 weeks folks. Remember I didn't go to WI last week b/c I felt I was off the wagon a bit. I'm really pleased with the three pound loss. I kind of see it as a 1.5lb loss for each week so maybe last week wasn't as bad as I thought! Here's to some great weeks ahead!

A little follow up to my car accident rant from my previous post.....After work I went to the Police Reporting Centre and reported the accident I was in last night. I then talked to my insurance company and filed both claims. After that I went directly to the dealership to hand in my car and got a rental. I ended up getting a red Sebring which I kind of like!  All this took me until about 1pm. I was exhausted when I got home as usually I head to bed at 8am! I got in bed, passed out and slept until 6:30pm.  At that time I had to get up to go to my WW meeting and to visit a friend. 

I am feeling way less stressed about everything now that I got it all sorted out  (as I expected). The anxiety is gone and I didn't eat any cookies or french fries or ice cream!  Oh yes...I rock. lol.... for today. ;-)

Down 0.4lbs

So I decided to WI today as I'm going away until sunday and will miss the meeting tomorrow. I was going to skip a WI, but decided not to. I didn't lose much this time around, but I also just WI on friday so that was to be expected. A loss is a loss and I'll take anything I can get!  Next WI I hope to lose at least 0.8lbs. If I do I will hit my 5%. It's not much of course, but it is something.  Next step is my 10%....but that might take awhile. *sigh* (24lbs).

The baseball game was a lot of fun.  My man fantasy was crushed a bit though when I found out he now has a  gf. I'm happy for him and I always did know my place in his world, but it still sucks.  It's like when you find out a celebrity you have the hots for is gay! It just ruins it. lol....

Annnnnyway,  Now I'm heading north and I'm pretty excited to get some R&R. I'm pretty much all packed up and about to head out. This is the first time I'm "trailering" as a vegetarian with a family who is not,  so I'm bring all my own stuff. Thank god for Yves poducts! I bought their veggie burgers and hotdogs to try and I brought some veggie ground round along too. Of course I bought lots of veggies and fruit as well. Wish me luck. It's going to be challenging to stay on target, but I'm bound and determined to  have that man dump his gf and come running my way lose this freak'in weight and finally start feeling good about myself again! The feelings are coming back already and I'm looking forward to what the future holds.

Anyway, have a great rest of your week if I don't get a chance to come on here. I have been slacking at reading all of your blogs. Sorry about that. I hope to play catch up soon!

Woohooo Down 3.0lbs

I'm so pleased with my weigh-in results this week. I've lost 10.8 lbs in two weeks. Holy Hannah People! I've never done that in my life!

Week 2 - down three more pounds! 

I'm so pleased with the results considering I had two different birthday dinners this past week. I was of course hoping for a great loss, but figured it wasn't in the cards. I'm so glad I was wrong!