I'm so hungry I could eat a.....

......House. Remember folks, I'm a vegetarian!  ;-)

I ate 54 points today.

My daily limit is 30.

That's 24 points over!

WOW

Luckily I had flex points (sorry non-WW peeps...I don't mean to leave you clueless) so haven't gone over, but what the hell? I was soooo hungry all the time today. I'd eat, and then two seconds later I'd be hungry again. I just could never get in the "feeling satisfied" zone.

I have an idea of why I'm so hungry, but we'll see..... Regardless, these hunger issues are a pain in the flipping arse! Now I only have 4 'extra points' left until Thursday. Don't worry, I can do math, I just ate a couple extra points prior to this crazy food day!

Cross you're fingers I don't feel this way tomorrow, or ladies and gents I'm going to be royally screwed!

The good news is I went out for a run with my running buddy again tonight. I at least got 4 activity points for doing that. Heck....I might need them!

Saturday update aka lameo title

So I'm still pretty proud of myself for running yesterday. The plan for tomorrow is ( after I sleep during the day) get up and go to the movies with a friend, and then go for a run when I get home. By that time it will be after 8pm so *fingers crossed* it will not be as hellish as my last run.

In other news....I forgot to tell you that I got my blood work results back.  I'm perfectly fine except my iron is a little low, but actually 11 points higher than when I was eating meat! Go figure. I'm not too concerned about it, I'll eat more greens and see how I feel. I am feeling a little less tired lately, but if need be I'll add another vitamin to the mix.  On top of the iron being low, my vitamin D is also low. This isn't an uncommon thing. I figure it's because of my schedule change that happened back in April and now I work way more night shifts than I use to. This  means I'm not getting as much sun. Boo!!!! I was already taking vitamin D 1000U, but stopped before my BW was done b/c I wanted to know my true baseline. Now I'm happy to report I'm back to taking that vitamin everyday.  All other values were fine, except I have to do another pee test. ugh....so annoying that I didn't pee in the cup right the first time. I should know better!
I also booked my holter monitor test. I have it done next week. I doubt it will show anything abnormal, but like I said before, it's better to get it checked out and know I'm fine, than leave it and find out later that I'm not!

Other new news is when I went to my WW meeting last thursday I was able to purchase their new 'monthly' pass. With that pass I I now have free access to etools. I didn't get the pass for the etools (I got it b/c it was cheaper to do it this way), but it's a nice bonus. Prior to this you had to pay extra which I thought was a rip off! For those that don't know, etools lets you track your points online and has a recipe builder and a bunch of other cool stuff. I guess in all honesty it's pretty much like all those other sites out there. When doing WW though, it's nice to have it all connected. I'm still not sure if I'll track online (I sort of still like the 1982 way of writing things down in pencil still), but we'll see...it might grow on me.

Tonight I'm on night shift #5 out of eight.  Eight 12hr night shifts in 10 days is killing me. I truly hope the new schedule I proposed to my bosses goes into effect soon! On the way to work I ended up buying a Venti three pump, light on the ice, non-fat iced chai tea  latte at Starbucks. Not sure how many points it was, but damn I needed it.

Down 3.0 lbs

Start weight - 247.4lbs - June 17, 2010

Current Weight - 233.2lbs
July 22, 2010

I'm down 14.2 lbs! Woohooo.... I reached my 5%. This watching what you eat/portion control thing really does work!  Who would have thunk?! Ten percent here I come! 

I lost another 3lbs at WI. Remember though, that's 3 pounds in 2 weeks folks. Remember I didn't go to WI last week b/c I felt I was off the wagon a bit. I'm really pleased with the three pound loss. I kind of see it as a 1.5lb loss for each week so maybe last week wasn't as bad as I thought! Here's to some great weeks ahead!

A little follow up to my car accident rant from my previous post.....After work I went to the Police Reporting Centre and reported the accident I was in last night. I then talked to my insurance company and filed both claims. After that I went directly to the dealership to hand in my car and got a rental. I ended up getting a red Sebring which I kind of like!  All this took me until about 1pm. I was exhausted when I got home as usually I head to bed at 8am! I got in bed, passed out and slept until 6:30pm.  At that time I had to get up to go to my WW meeting and to visit a friend. 

I am feeling way less stressed about everything now that I got it all sorted out  (as I expected). The anxiety is gone and I didn't eat any cookies or french fries or ice cream!  Oh yes...I rock. lol.... for today. ;-)

Goals, goals, goals....

(sorry, it's a long one).....

I feel like I've lost my focus. I need to get it back. I feel like I'm letting the heat outside and my tiredness take over my will to succeed. They have been huge obstacles that  I need to get over. I feel like I'm travelling backwards instead of forwards these days.

I did go to the doctor and he ordered a bunch of blood work which I had done on friday. I'm sure I'll hear something in the next couple of days. He also ordered a 24hr holter monitor for me. I've had a couple heart palpitations (oh joy) so he thought it best.  I'm not too worried about it. It has only happened a couple of times and for about 10 seconds each, but it's better safe than sorry, right? I got them before I became a veggie head too, but once again very, very rarely. My family does have heart health issues so I thought it best to inform the doc and get it checked out before it becomes more of a problem. With more weight loss, exercise and healthy food choices though, I hope it never does!

I am back to tracking and although I doubt I'll see a big loss at WI on thursday, I am hoping to at least see something.  I found eating via my points during the day far harder than eating my points when I'm on a night shift. I'm back on nights now though, so here's hoping I can kick some ass in the next two weeks.
Since rejoining WW in the last month I've lost 11.2 lbs.  My goal for the next month (July 17-August 17) is to lose 10lbs. It's a bit ambitious I know (since I will most likely not have a killer number like my first week ever again), but with a return to running, and tracking really well, I think I might be able to pull it off.  If I don't, I'll still be happy I lost something so no worries!  Another goal I haven't forgotten about it the 5K next month. I must fight the heat and my laziness fatigue and get out there and run again.  I still really want to participate in the 5K run next month. I have 39 days to train. I can do this! I will do this!!!! Sure the heat might kick my ass again and again when I run, but at least I got out there and tried. Right now, I'm sitting on my ass more than anything and I don't like it! I've come too far to give up now.

A few things I've done lately to help myself succeed are....

I got groceries! Yay!!!! Anyone who has been reading this blog for awhile, knows I HATE grocery shopping. I mean, once I'm there I'm fine. I just hate GOING! I ended up going to Watson's Farm  to switch it up a bit. Plus there's  nothing better than fresh grown local fruits and veggies! Since I was a kid I have gone and picked fresh raspberries and strawberries in the summer at Watson's Farm. This year I didn't pick my own (it was threatening rain when I was there and didn't want to chance it), but I did pick up both berries along with corn on the cob, cucumbers, potatoes, peppers, and green beans. The strawberries are SOOOO much better than the ones you get at the grocery store. So so sweet. The ones at the grocery store have zero taste and almost made me think I didn't like strawberries anymore!

I then hit the grocery store where I bought  beets, kale, cherries and watermelon, along with whole wheat bread, free-run omega 3 brown eggs,  a few 100cal snacks, soy and almond milk, along with a few other things I'm forgetting at the moment.  Needless to say my fridge is packed with great food which can only help me succeed!

I also e-mailed a Goodlife gym near my house asking about membership prices. I have yet to hear back from them though. Really I should have called, but I was just searching around the internet and found their e-mail and decided what the hell. Initially I had talked to a friend who rented gym equipment thinking I could just rent a treadmill for the summer when it's super hot out, but I found out it would cost over $70/month. That is INSANE! My girlfriend has kids so finds it easier for her this way, but for me who doesn't, it just doesn't make sense. Why rent one piece of equipment when I can just go to the gym and use far more pieces for less?  It all still really depends on price though, so we'll see. I think it might be the best thing I can do for myself though. I didn't want a membership for fear of not going after a few months, but if it will help my running which I'm determined not to give up, it might actually be worth the risk. Plus my 30s are all about giving a shit, so I can't give up! I can't quit this time!

Anyway, so that has been my life in a nutshell.  Oh.... last but not least, thanks to Missarahlou I have been given a blog award! Woohoo!!!  In my next post I'll be sure to follow the rules and tell you all #7 new things about myself and nominate others! thanks again Misssarahlou!

WOO-HOO!!!! Down 7.8 lbs!

Holy Shit Hannah is right! I lost 7.8 lbs tonight! I'm FINALLY in the 230s!!!!!!!! 239.6 lbs to be exact. WOOO -HOOO!!!!!!! You have no idea how excited I am to finally say good-bye to the 240s. Oh wait...Okay, maybe you do! *smile*. I couldn't get the smile off my face at my WW meeting. I'm just so happy! I totally could jump up and down like a preschooler right now! I was hoping for a big number like that, but I wasn't sure it would happen. YAY! I've never had a WI like that before. It feels awesome!

The proof  although blurry.
(Sorry the slippery/shinny WW paper makes it difficult to photograph)
1st WI results

After my WI and listening to my awesome leader Karen talk, I decided to buy a pita from the Pita Pit .  I opted for their hummus whole wheat pita packed with lettuce, tomato, onion, sprouts, cucumbers and peppers with honey dijon mustard. It was soooo good.  So tasty and I will definitely be getting another one as a treat sometime. I wouldn't want to buy these all the time though as the hummus is not low fat.  I do realize I could totally make a low fat hummus pita a home myself though, so maybe that's what I should be doing next time. Humm....it sure was nice to have someone else make it though.

After I ate, I went to Chapters and bought a few books. I spent a lot of money, but I think it was worth it. They have a sale on right now buy three books get the fourth free. Score! I bought Living Vegetarian for Dummies - I love the dummy books. I thought it was a good idea as I'm still fairly new to this veggie lifestyle and this book looks like it really provides a easy to read guide into the world of vegetarianism. I also bought a awesome vegetarian cookbook by good housekeeping called Family Vegetarian cooking. I bought this one simply because the book was packed with photos and all the recipes looked delicious and easy to make. Plus each recipe has the nutritional info included for easy WW point calculations!  The third and forth books I bought were Skinny Bitch and The 100-Mile Diet. I've spoken on this blog about the Skinny Bitch book before. A friend of mine had it at work and I started reading it.  I found it very funny and to the point. It caught my attention right away. I think it really pushes the vegan diet, but I'm looking forward to reading the whole thing and taking tips from it here and there.

The 100-mile diet book I had no intention of buying tonight, but when I picked it up I found it intriguing. It's about a couple in Vancouver, British Columbia that decided for one year to only eat food that is grown/produced within a 100 mile radius of their apartment. They end up "transforming themselves from mega-mart shoppers to self sufficient urban pioneers" - this is what the back of the book tells me anyway! ;-) I did read the first few pages at chapters though and was hooked. I want to know how they did it, so I bought the book. Plus, it's nice to read something Canadian once and awhile.

Veggie Books! 

Anyway, I think that's it for tonight folks. Nighty Night.

A New Beginning....

One June 5th I weighed in at home at  240lbs.

One June 17th I weighed in at WW at 247.4lbs.

My scale and the WW scale are pretty much dead on.

yup... I know..... I was hoping there was a difference too!

I gained 7.4 lbs in 12 days!

ugh.....

Now I know this is somewhat false because I ate a crap load of food 1.5 hours before I weighed in tonight at the meeting (YAY, for going!).  This crap load of food made me extremely bloated and 'blocked up" if you know what I mean. For a vegetarian, I haven't been having many veggies lately and the cheese I eat is not good for my digestive system!!! I truly should go vegan, but I'm not ready.  Anyway,  I continued on my binge eating ways because a) I treated it like a last supper and didn't give a shit what I ate b) I think I was nervous/anxious about going and how do I cope...with food of course and c) the more fat I am this week from salt, gas, poop etc... that much more of a loss will show up next week. Oh yeah...I truly do think this way.

I am proud for going though. I truly am. I know it's going to be a brutal few days of withdrawal from the foods I have gotten in the habit of having the last little bit (mainly french fries from McD's) but I am going to suffer through.  Hello, they are french fries, not crack....I can do this....plus, at least I can still eat oven baked fries...Hey peeps, it's all about harm reduction, not just abstinence!


Anyway, of course I'll keep ya all in the loop and here's hoping for a killer loss next thursday!

Now just a few pictures to show you I truly did go. Proof is in the pictures as they say..okay so maybe the expression is the proof is in the pudding...but whatever........Here you go.

The pocket Guide - Let's hope the sticker is right!

My first WI - 247.4 lbs.  

For my 5% I need to lose 12lbs

for my 10% I need to lose 24 lbs  

I got all those stars for sharing the fact I ran a 5K last saturday!! ;-)

Two extra handouts I got - Yay, they had one for veggie heads like me! 

Thursday is W-Day

I ate an entire container of Ruffles French Onion Dip in less than 24hours. THE ENTIRE JAR!!!!  I ate it for a snack last night, for breakfast (ugh) this morning and for lunch! What is wrong with me????

All I can say is this is why I plan to walk into a WW meeting on thursday. Although I love my running pictures because they capture a great moment in my life, I can't help but notice that I still look gross and disgusting. Okay, so perhaps that's an exaggeration, but I'm sure you get what I mean. I hate the fact I have a turkey "gobble gobble" neck. Sure it runs in my family. My grandmother has one, my mother has one too, but they got theirs in the 50s and 60s. I got mine in my 20s. I don't need to have it right now! With weight loss, it will slowly disappear and I can't wait.

I saw so many runners of all different shapes and sizes yesterday and they all kicked my ass. It was awesome. I know to be a fast runner, you don't have to be a skinny little thing, but as I said in my previous post, I hope that with weight loss it will help me increase my pace.  It makes sense, the less you have to haul around, the faster you shall go, so here's hoping. This morning I found one article that states

If you're already trying to shed some pounds, here's more incentive: Research has shown that, on average, runners get two seconds per mile faster for every pound they lose. So, for example, a 10-pound weight loss would shave about one minute off your 5K race time.


I know it doesn't seem like much, but I have about 70 pounds to lose! That's 7 minutes off my current pace and that doesn't take into consideration just getting better because of more training. Each run for me is brutal, and I know the weight I'm carrying around is not helping me achieve my best. I don't want to quit because I've come too far, but I have to do something to make it easier, and weight loss in one solution. 


I have to say though I don't know how runners do it. My legs were so sore after the run. I soaked in a cold bath, followed by a hot shower and still they were sore. I sprayed muscle mist on my legs and A535 and still they are sore. These peeps that run 5-10k daily....how the hell do they do it? How do they keep their legs so loose? I can't even imagine running today and tomorrow is still a question mark. I truly envy them, I really do. I hope one day to learn their secrets and be like them.